Jesus

Consider this prospect you might like it. “I'm dead!” Whenever that happens to be that I die I don’t know yet the exact date. Unfortunately for the people who might wish me dead now my death won’t be from a suicide unless it’s a Doctor assisted suicide for a terminal illness which I might develop at some point. I do believe strongly that people have the right to receive help dying with a terminal illness. 

 

From the afterlife where “I’m dead” is a place we will all find ourselves in soon enough whenever that is and whatever that ends up being like. Many of us will be dead in the next forty-five years or in far less time. What beyond the grave will look like is a mystery but what follows in coming paragraphs will assert to know and have insights. 

I believe I will regret something once I’m in Heaven. Eventually when It comes time to be there, after seeing everyone on Earth of our generations move beyond the Earth, I will feel a compassion which will be directed toward everyone upon seeing them anew. I think I know this to be true absolutely, not fictionally, in some intuitive way. Once in Heaven beyond the Earth there will come a loving realization that dawns on me, and that also dawns on everyone else, about true reality. With our nature changed and opened to real compassion other people will matter exceedingly more and our deepest regret will be in not having greater compassion, concern, kindness and love for everyone. 

So If I were standing there now in Heaven I know I would have overwhelming regrets for any missed opportunity to show people love or give people hope. I think hope is something real and not something misguided to believe in. For any way that I failed to show people love, which is really what we’re meant to become and be about as people, I will regret everything that ever hurt another person that I have done in my life. If you think that’s gibberish talk you don’t understand God’s true character because that’s what Jesus was about love. 

Once in Heaven I will carry no more attitudes of stubbornness there. I will entertain no selfish ego, justify no resentment towards others, and have no more thoughts and ideas of hostility or revenge that rise up and trouble my mind and billions of other minds across the planet. I will  be freed from the contaminations of sin and free of any of evils attack on the human condition. I’ll therefore feel and know entirely then the good I should have said and didn’t and feel solemn regret for any form of hatred or indifference I felt for others.

I will escape the cemetery in my local community where my corpse or dust will be put to rest when I die. I will easily survive my bodies destruction and survive the rumors of my annihilation. In passing from a lessor order of things where the lowly, hilly, windswept terrain around me is; by moving beyond life’s oceans, rivers, and valley grasses and past the intermittent patches of civilization I will then and there finally be with God. I will go beyond any state of disbelief anyone has now to a better place where conflicts that people pursue blindly in ignorance are left behind. I will have stepped beyond those many beguiling, misleading, hostility driven thoughts and ideas. Whatever the source of such conflict is those darkening and troubling Satanic ideas that trouble this beautiful but often indifferent place will be behind me.

Now, If I reach that place before you do, I will be somewhere your not. I’ll be moving out of a place of fear in the here and now on to an existence of total fearlessness. There I will move beyond this current state of sin where evil has an influence. Here experiencing beauty was conditional while there I will go to where a fulfillment of beauty extends into ever increasingly more complex places where there will be ever newer and far richer discoveries of thought to experience.

 In the before, which is the now, I understood the beauty around me but I did not understand it adequately. Here on Earth I failed to properly observe natures passing countryside with eyes that were opened wide enough to reverently see the sights I witnessed correctly, Nor did I listen with ears intently enough to hear the improbable and brilliant sounds around me. I couldn’t properly hear the noises sounding from quiet glens in the countryside, the secluded marshes at night, or to hear the mighty passing waters of streams and rivers.

 Now in Heaven I will set my eyes on those infinite and expanding vistas. The former sights that I experienced I will reflect on with a new appreciation of gratitude. My eyes will be newly opened to the unending and to the eternal.  I am assured by this source of good, a Being of love beyond measurement or limitation, that He loves His creation and I am His creation as is everyone else. I look to this God as a Being of sublimity with a power which satisfies all longings of the heart and more. Greater things then this He will do and you will marvel to see them.

Do we know the inner groaning's of our hearts on Earth. Don’t we feel these longings stir in us intently. We know these guttural, heartfelt cravings after our feelings feel impoverished, when our person gets improperly handled, whenever we’re mistreated in the world. Somehow we didn't, or couldn’t, have our deepest needs met like rightfully we would of had in a better place. We have this sense we feel where we believe in fairness and in it being properly fulfilled or satisfied in this life in our journey but it isn’t. If we could have articulated that inner longing we feel we might see that it was looking for love, understanding, forgiveness, fairness, kindness, an interest from everyone in our well being.

 Life is meant to offer us ultimately more then hope and that is no dream or illusion. I recognize the force half veiled who is responsible as the prime mover of our existence. God is this supreme entity who I search for surrounding me and my often misguided nature that offers us all His forgiveness, love and mercy. I will step forward happily, joyfully, freely into His presence some day where I’ll discover His continual and irremovable friendship. In His perfect love He cares not only about me but equally for all of humanity too. 

You might defiantly want to shout with vulgarity at this post If that's how you respond to how you see life’s terms. If you look at life in a way where you think being realistic about things is being skeptical or doubtful about the future. It’s your right to believe what you believe. I will gladly endure and listen to your curses and debate your arguments. I’ll be here a few years maybe, who really knows or can tell. I am however going to be with God after this life is over. I know that perspective to be a real one whether you understand there is a God or you don’t understand.

I wrest in the assurance I’ve experienced that in God is mercy and an unfailing friendship for us all. I trust that Jesus really did appear in history and that He was more then just a man being the Son of God who died for the sins of the world.