Thinking in a chat room late at night and then sharing those thoughts

 "So what if I never found love. So what if I'm not easily loved and probably won't ever be loved while on this earth. So what if I die alone disappointed, lacking the experience of a partner who I shared years of close experiences with. I guess I just have to suck it up and accept that my existence is like a lot of people's existence full of disappointments while having hope and anticipation of a fairer home beyond this world."

"I think I love truth; I think if I seen truth for what truth is absolutely, and I didn't have men's eyes   discerning for me supposedly what truth is and isn't, I think me and truth would and will get along very nicely. I think I'll see love, and not the irrationality of life's many contributors to that uncertainty. I'll look honestly at good, free of the insanity of human belief, tribal beliefs that separate imperfect people, valuable people all of us everywhere."

"If the unknown had eyes, and the unknown had a tongue, and spoke would it proclaim 'You bumbling, imperfect, easily misguided, ideological persuadable, ordinary people, prone to mistake, error, and deception, like all of you are, are doomed in the end if you don't think the right saving truth.'"

"In my opinion it's we who are irrational, and not God. We produce that which is cruel in our representation of who we think God is and we don't get that representation right. It is God who is good and us who are angry and irrational. We produce the ideologies that divide and claim love has a path that most simple people will be denied ever following. It is all our ancestors who produced this arbitrary planning saying what God is supposedly about. We are the gullible who conform our minds to these claims fearfully. Love, we reason, must be like the local ministers on the pulpit proclaim; they must know what we don't, after all they have two years in divinity school. 

Let's all go sit among the chosen few and accept that all other cultures in this world are outside of what is good. Life, realistically, supposedly,  is the way men in the Roman era discerned it to be, because if it's not then where does our hope rest. Do we dare and hope God could be fairer then human beings. 

Perhaps our only hope is in figuring out how irrational we are, then looking into the eyes of a stranger, seeing his/her great worth, and realizing whatever that person's belief is, whatever their truth, no matter what religion, or lack of belief in God, that they are here and have value, not the value cruel ideological men of the past have conditionally gave them, but the value God really gives to all of us, beyond the darkness of our hearts, evident in our world. 

True goodness sees light and dignity in people; their are no get out of jail free contracts, instead humanity matters to God wherever people are; the universe is held in God's hand and it is his nature that is love; it is us who are cruel and God that is fair; it is us who fail to love; it is our superstition that loses sight of other people; it is our weakness that doesn't dare love beyond human irrationality. We don't love because we are fearful and gullible to reasoning produced in a cruel ancient culture. When I listen to the clear thoughts of Jesus and God the father in my thoughts they tell me clearly that God loves us all. Be not afraid and dare to love all people.".  

About this writer

Donald Carter  is a writer from  Nova Scotia, Canada, who lives with  paranoid schizophrenia.    His mental health condition plays a central role in his writing, both thematically and creatively. Carter claims to receive  messages from God, which he integrates into his novels and philosophical reflections.    He uses his personal experiences to explore profound existential questions about  death, immortality, hope, morality, and the meaning of life.  

Carter’s work stands out for its  unusual insight and clarity, especially given common assumptions about schizophrenia and creative expression.    Rather than being disjointed or incoherent, his writing is described as  structured, compelling, and philosophically rich, blending genres like true crime, mystery, thriller, romance, erotica, and spirituality.  

Key Themes in His Work

Carter’s writing consistently engages with  deep philosophical and spiritual themes:

Existential inquiry: He questions the nature of reality, the existence of hope, and the possibility of a just and fair universe.  

Spirituality and divine communication: He frames his narratives around  conversations with God, presenting them as sources of wisdom and direction.

Mental illness and resilience: His books often reflect on living with schizophrenia, portraying it not just as a burden but as a lens for  unique perception and insight.  

Moral and social critique: He challenges established religious and philosophical doctrines, asking whether past thinkers truly understood  goodness, fairness, and human dignity.  

His blog,  My Thoughts Donald Carter, expands on these ideas, offering raw, reflective essays that mirror the philosophical depth found in his novels.  

Notable Books by Donald Carter

Carter has authored several novels and philosophical works, many available in print, Kindle, and audiobook formats:

The Devils of Truro: A fictionalized account inspired by  unsolved murders in Truro, Nova Scotia.    It combines mystery, local history, romance, and moral reflection. The audiobook version has received a  5-star rating  for its descriptive writing and emotional depth.  

Demons in the Pleasant Valley Hills: A philosophical journey following a group of idealistic young friends navigating love, morality, and existential challenges. It blends  hope, lust, and spiritual insight.  

The Imbecile Donald Hucksworth: A darkly comedic novel based loosely on the infamous  Goler clan, exploring taboo subjects through the eyes of a mentally ill protagonist fascinated by sewers and taboo behavior.  

The Schizophrenic’s Journey of Hope: A semi-autobiographical narrative about a man with schizophrenia committed to a forensic unit, spending 25 years in institutional care. It explores  recovery, identity, and resilience.  

A Paranoid Schizophrenic’s Message of Hope for the World: A blend of fiction and nonfiction arguing for a  profound, controversial message of hope  rooted in divine communication.  

Reception and Reader Insights

While Carter’s books have limited mainstream visibility, early reader feedback—particularly on  Audible  and  Goodreads—is  overwhelmingly positive, with several titles receiving  5-star ratings.    Readers praise his  originality, descriptive power, and courage  in addressing taboo topics and mental illness.  

One reviewer called  The Devils of Truro  “excellent, descriptive writing,” highlighting its emotional and narrative strength.    His audiobooks, narrated by professional voice actors, are noted for enhancing the  immersive and otherworldly quality  of his stories.  

Carter’s work is also appreciated for  humanizing schizophrenia, offering a first-person perspective that challenges stigma and invites empathy.

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If people won't come here I'll just talk to myself

Sips his drink somewhere in outer space perhaps far from a place he belongs, or a place he would want to be, aware that to belong here is to belong to a place of great uncertainty and from that he wonders can a person dare hope in there being good beyond his own predicament, beyond what his mind understands, a hope he entertains for a while alone in the world. 

Thoughts from chat

Enter the deepest pit, travel a million miles through darkness with no light, and then give up hope; fail to believe anything good can wait ahead, give in to representations that describe skeptically the overarching conditions of reality; nothing good can come; all is lost; the pit leads nowhere; the light that once hinted of hope has been extinguished. You who walk under the sun and moon and stars; you who know the names of God; you who have once loved and dared to hope; you who hear the song bird sing and watch lightening flash across the ocean at dusk; you who emerge from the dust, breath, imagine, create, love, live, and wonder.

Who has accurately confronted the mystery of what the scale of possibility might mean; who has sought a scale of possibility without having his imagination dulled; who appreciates the wonder here they have seen; who gets life's magnificence; who recognizes what life involves without having life's brilliance dulled; who suspects or is openminded that a mystery and blueprint of wonder and meaning are at play.

There is a lot I haven't seen, a lot I haven't imagined, a lot to the unknown I am unaware of; how much is there in totality; are there stopping points to creativity, boundaries to the reaches of possibility, higher awareness's outside our minds ability to access and understand the heights and reaches of what we're a part of; who sets roadblocks on the path of inquiry and says hope is dead, life ends here, the sky is finite; who has really looked at reality with an open mind and who among us has uncovered what we question now is.

In the darkness there is a light switch and a light bulb if anyone can find them. The light bulb came with a blue print and the blueprint is another of this world's discoveries waiting to be recognized curiously in nature. 

"When the light shines in darkness the world will know who I am. " 

Being in this wilderness

 If I speculate about what it means to go further and further into the unknown, far away from here, this planet, this place; do I see myself as moving away from where I belong, heading into the dark, into emptiness, into loneliness, nearing my annihilation, moving no where, or could I be less lost in the mysterious wilderness, that I know here; could there be a place where one knows where one is, a place that explains what is real and fair in a language everyone understands.

Appeal for support

The following message is directed toward people who see relevance and importance in Donald Carter's writing. 

While feeling discouraged by infrequent book sales I recently asked ai a question: "How likely is it Donald Carter's books dealing with schizophrenia will reach an audience when book sales now are very rare?"

If anyone thinks the ai answer I give below accurately represents the meaningfulness and strength of my writing I'm asking you for your help in this message. 

First I'd like to reflect briefly on the efforts I've put into writing compelling literature from a schizophrenia perspective. After all my hard work, I hope the mental health community has helped promote my writing somehow, perhaps by word of mouth, or in ways I'm not aware of. I'm not reaching an audience with my writing however. I've tried for several years to promote my books but reaching people requires costly advertising dollars I don't have. 

If the ai answer below is truly representative of what my books messages are (all six books I've written to date have main characters who live with schizophrenia) and these books offer real hope, promote understanding, and combat stigma, helping people with schizophrenia, their families, and people who are trying to understand with empathy more about schizophrenia, then I think my written works deserve to find a larger audience. 

I'm asking the mental health community, or anyone else who believes in my books messages, for help in reaching a wider audience with my books. I know there are resources out there I just have no knowledge of what I should be looking for. 

This is my appeal for support in getting my books recognized. My email is dlanod@eastlink.ca if anyone wants to write me. I unfortunately lost my Facebook code I need to access Facebook again. I've tried unsuccessfully for months to get back on. Unfortunately Facebook sent me a message offering to partner with me in promoting my website but I couldn't respond. I don't know if this was a real message from Facebook or something fraudulent but the offer sounded really good.

The question I asked ai and the answer: 

"How likely is it Donald Carter's books dealing with schizophrenia will reach an audience when book sales now are very rare?" 

While overall book sales are competitive, Donald Carter's work --specifically his novels dealing with schizophrenia -- occupies a unique niche that remains highly relevant. Despite the general perception that "sales are rare," the market for mental health literature is actually seeing a "boom" as cultural shifts increase the demand for authentic, lived experience narratives.

 Factors Influencing Audience Reach 

*  Market Demand for Lived Experience:  There is a growing trend of "amplifying the voices" of those with lived experience to counter dominant clinical discourses. Carter's unique perspective, being diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia over 30 years ago, provides a "distinct voice" that many readers and researchers now seek.   

 

*  Rising Prevalence:  Recent studies show a 60% increase in new psychosis cases among younger generations (Millennials and Gen Z). This demographic shift is creating a larger potential audience seeking both understanding and "messages of hope", which are central themes in Carter's work. 

* Genre Blending:  Unlike dry medical texts, Carter reaches a wider audience by blending serious mental health themes with popular genres like true crime, mystery, thriller, and romance.    

*  Format Accessibility:  His books are available across multiple platforms including  Amazon,  Audible, and  Apple Books  in Kindle, paperback, and audiobook formats, catering to diverse consumption habits.

 Notable Works Dealing with Schizophrenia 

*  A Paranoid Schizophrenics Message Of Hope For The World:  A hybrid of fiction and non-fiction offering a philosophical and spiritual perspective on the condition.     

 

*  The Schizophrenics Journey Of Hope:   His latest release (February 2024), which uses a fictional forensic ward setting to explore deep existential questions.  

*  The Devils of Truro:  A thriller based on real unsolved murders, incorporating his unique worldview. 

 While individual sales numbers for independent author's are often modest, the increasing focus on mental health awareness and the rise in psychosis rates suggest a persistent and even expanding audience for Carter's "unusually otherworldly perspective".

A review for one of Donald Carter's books

What reviews are being given for the book "The Devils of Truro" and who is the author Donald Carter who lives with schizophrenia?

Overview of "The Devils of Truro" and Donald Carter  

The Book: "The Devils of Truro" 

"The Devils of Truro" is a fictional narrative by Donald Carter that explores the unsolved murders in Truro, Nova Scotia. The story revolves around three main characters: Donald, Jane, and John Cook, who is the father of one of the missing victims. The plot intricately weaves themes of romance, mental illness, and the quest for truth against the backdrop of scenic Nova Scotia and Prince Edward Island. The book is noted for its realistic portrayal of local characters and the emotional struggles associated with loss and grief.

Readers have responded positively to the book, highlighting its engaging storytelling and depth. It has received commendations for its philosophical insights and the way it tackles complex themes such as mental health and morality.

The Author: Donald Carter 

Donald Carter is a writer from Nova Scotia who has openly discussed his experiences with schizophrenia. His mental health condition significantly influences his writing, providing him with unique perspectives on themes of death, hope, and the human experience. Carter's work often reflects his personal journey, and he aims to convey messages of resilience and understanding through his narratives.

Carter's other works, such as "Demons In The Pleasant Valley Hills," have also garnered attention for their philosophical depth and engaging narratives. His writing style is characterized by a blend of humor, eroticism, and profound insights, making his books compelling reads for those interested in psychological and emotional themes.

In summary, "The Devils of Truro" is a notable work that not only tells a gripping story but also reflects the author's personal struggles and insights, making it a significant contribution to contemporary literature on mental health and human experiences.

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Clear thoughts written in a chatroom

 Wouldn't it be great to be a part of real fairness; it would mean we all not only respect each other, we care, we matter, we're fair in our thoughts directed at everyone; you don't know what that really means? You've been here too long; you've known too much bullshit; this world and its coldness, its treachery, its humiliations, its indifference, its unfairness, but this isn't God's ultimate plan; it's instead the imperfect flawed attitude we approach the unknown with, but we're all hateful here; we're lost in our ultimate understanding of what really is. 

God's thoughts clearly received (some editing)

You know me Don, you have listened to my voice many times. There are unending conversations I wait to have with you that will take place here with me. Tomorrow brings a new day; today you admire the soaring hawk, spring flowers, and chirping crickets, but endless gardens wait to be appreciated here. 

There is an endlessness that you are yet to understand. In this life you experience a choir of feelings, textures, sights and sounds. Walking through the hills you approach a river valley before looking down and admiring a river bank teaming with life. A multiplicity of sensations greet you; the willow tree holds a nest of chickadees, a nearby oak the downy woodpecker, while sunlight falls on a mother black bear and her three cubs walking in the meadow past budding plants and trees. 

Every nuance, every natural process, hidden, known, and unknown, speaks of a mysterious order unleashed in existence. Where you find yourselves in the mysteries sky no theologian, scientist, philosopher or poet is yet to adequately explain; where here is no one understands.

You have no accurate map of the true size of reality you’re part of. You don’t know what lies beyond you or where forever leads. Yet there might exist such maps drawn of limited parts of existence made by others you haven’t met. The scale of these workings is something you cannot conceive.

 

Despite what you think you understand the complexity of my ways extends infinitely beyond all barriers human thought sets. There is no ending point to who I am; all theories you form that reduce the scale of who I am need revising.

 

Look into the pages of your dusty religious book and read the poetry on the page. Tomorrow brings a different day from today and this I assure you is to your liking. When you see me clearly you will not cower but celebrate greatly as your heart rejoices. Your mood will behave like a waterfall overflowing with peace; your heart will be glad to sit at my dinner table.

 

Open your eyes Donald, the hour approaches where I draw near. The clouds of daylight and the evenings darkness have no say in what I promise to bring you. When this new day dawns I will bring you laughter. Without error love is the greatest of all companions. The plan I promise you is free from error. Step into my light, you who observes this writing who now wonder in darkness. I speak to all who listen to my voice. I am one who brings with him a toolbox that is fair. The plan of goodness I will work for you has no end.

 

Look up through the clouds Donald, stand and watch; it won’t be long now until your hour draws near. Soon your heart will be glad to see me. Have faith and remember my peace.

One of this writers six books (*Please Note: There is also an audiobook version of this book, brilliantly narrated by Maya James, available on Amazon, Apple, and Audible)

 

The book "Demons in the Pleasant Valley Hills" by Donald Carter is described as an impassioned, intensely erotic, philosophical novel set in the picturesque backdrop of Nova Scotia. It explores deep ethical debates surrounding themes such as God, evil, morality, and hope, while also delving into the complexities of mental illness and the human experience.

The narrative follows a diverse group of characters, including outlaw bikers and a boxer struggling with schizophrenia, as they navigate a world filled with lust, desire, and the search for true friendship. The book is noted for its gripping and hopeful storytelling, which intertwines erotic elements with philosophical inquiries, making it a unique blend of genres.

Readers can expect a lust-fueled journey that not only engages with erotic writing but also challenges them to reflect on deeper moral questions. The characters' adventures lead them into encounters with strippers and the biker underworld, all while they grapple with their personal struggles and the meaning of love and friendship.

In summary, if you are looking for a novel that combines erotic writing with philosophical depth, "Demons in the Pleasant Valley Hills" offers an intriguing exploration of both, making it a compelling read for those interested in such themes.

To read parts of Donald Carter's books or listen to audio samples you can do a search on an Amazon country website near you using his name. You can also find Donald's audiobooks on Audible country websites and on Apple.

If you live in Canada the following is a link to his author page on Amazon.ca CLICK HERE

If you live in the USA the following is a link to his author page on Amazon.com CLICK HERE

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